Alone. That’s how I feel.
Around most of my family & friends, gender roles are no big deal.
I’m afraid of telling some of them that I won’t be having a career or going to college, that I want to be the homemaker that God wants me to be.
I feel as though they’d think I’m wasting my entire life because I’m not doing something that’s meaningful to them or something they think is meant for me.
I get so afraid of the rejection I might face not only when I graduate high school, but when I become a mom and wife.
But then I remember John 15:19, and realize that I don’t have to be afraid or feel alone because I know that even though I may face rejection, Jesus Christ knows that I’m making the right decision with my life.
I remember that he will be by my side even if no one else is, that I should put what he wants for my life as my first priority.
And even though there are other older women out there that believe the same way I do, I know that what I believe is still only for a teenage minority.
But even so, I hope that one day soon I will be able to reach out to other girls my same age.
So that when they grow up to be homemakers and submissive wives themselves, they know like I do that Jesus will support them and be with them the whole way, unlike other people that will reject them in rage.
Yes, in case some of you were wondering, this is supposed to be a rhyming poem. I love writing those kinds of things by the way! Even though this one could’ve been a bit better, I’m still happy with my results in it. All of what I said in this poem is true, the fear and rejection were things that I used to think about all the time to myself. But even though John 15:19 and God did help me get through it and change my perspective on that, the fear and rejection still kind of bug me, but I don’t think there’s really any teenager that believes this and doesn’t fear rejection at least a little bit.
Anyways, I know I kind of made this poem seem like people reject my idea of homemaking and being submissive all the time, but in truth, I barely bring it up to my family or friends anymore. However, when I first told them what I wanted to do, they looked confused and sounded upset. Some of them even tried teaching me otherwise, like I should have at least have a back-up plan (a degree in college)for my life if my husband doesn’t make a lot of money for me and my children, if we happen to get divorced, if he dies, the list goes on and on. And I know they probably said that because they care about my well-being, but I also know that it was also because they were in denial that what I believed I should do is in the bible and what God wants for women.
Also, just to clear up any other misunderstandings about my family, I know that John 15:19 says, “Therefore the world hateth you” However I am not trying to say in the poem that my family and/or friends hate me, I do not believe that to be true at all. I more believe that they hate my belief but not me as a person, I know that no matter how much my beliefs conflict with theirs, my family will always care for me and love me the way they always do. However, I think the verse is more talking about the world outside of your family and friends that hates you. And when I said “alone” in the poem, I don’t mean physically alone, you know? I mean like mentally in my belief to be a homemaker and a submissive wife.
Some people, especially younger kids or teenagers around my age, read the bible all the time, but don’t know how to correctly define some verses in the bible by their true meaning. That’s okay though, I was definitely like that not too long ago myself, lol. But to help some of you out, I’m going to define John 15:19.
In John 15:19 (KJV), it says, “If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.”
My definition: Let’s start off with the first part, “If ye were of the world”, this just simply means, “If you were like society or everyone else in the world around you that is not doing what God wants”, though in this case that is homemaking and being a submissive wife.
The next part is, “The world would love his own”, this means, “Then society or everyone else that is not doing certain things that God asks of them would accept you because you are like them.”
Then this part, “but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world”, this means, “but since you are not like everyone else that is going against what God asks, and he chooses you out of those people to do what he asks.”
Then finally, “therefore the world hateth you”, this one means, “The people around you that are not doing what God asks or just society, hates you or does not accept you because you want to do a certain thing that God asks of you to do and they choose not to.” Remember this does not have to mean family and/or friends, but in some cases it could.
Now, again I do not want there to be any misunderstandings here about me or what I wrote, so I’m going to clarify exactly what I was trying to say here. When I say “the people around you that are not doing what God asks”, I am not trying to indicate that you or I have never not done what God has asked of me or you, we are all sinners without a question, the only person who isn’t is God himself. We have all done something, that we know God would not be proud of or like whether we realize it or not. What I was trying to say here was “the people around you who are not doing a certain thing/rule that God has asked of them to do, but you are doing this particular thing/rule that you know God asks of you to do.” In this case, that would be you, a teenage girl, wanting to be a homemaker and a submissive wife, but the rest of the world finds that offending, or they just don’t want to do that themselves, or do not want to follow that rule in the bible.
Also when I say that John 15:19 helped me get through rejection and fear of rejection, and when I say that it reminded me that Jesus is always by my side, I was meaning it kind of reminded me that I should already expect rejection and/or hate to happen to me having the beliefs that I have, and that even though I should expect that, Jesus will not reject me because he knows that I’m doing what’s right by wanting to become a homemaker and submissive wife according to the bible.
If there is anything else on here that you guys think I made a mistake on, or you think you’re misunderstanding something I wrote and want me to clarify what I meant, then please let me know in the comments section below or contact me by email. 🙂